Friday, June 22, 2007
Alot of things happened recently. My cousin and my grandma was both admitted to NUH for treatment in ICU. Their wards are only side by side. Alot of methods are used to save my grandma but unfortunately she left the world on 16 June 2007. i couldnt accept the truth, we promise to bring her home after she recovers, but we failed to. We have let her down. She wanted to go home so badly. But we just couldnt help her with such a simple thing. My cousin had recovered already, he's still young, so we are not so worried about him. The doctor gave us two choices. The first option is either let her go after she bled all or to let her have an operation, which is only 20 percent of chance. We had to gamble with it coz we couldnt just let her go without saving her. Yes, she survived the op, the bleeding had stopped. The sad thing is her lungs are full of water till it's endangering her life. Each time i entered the room, my heart hurts. She's panting and in pain yet i could not help her. What i can do is just give her my moral support. She stayed in the hospital for 10 days and passed away after that. We had witnessed her bidding of life, she's nt opening her eyes initially but yes in the end. We took turns to bid her goodbye and asked her to look for our grandpa. Though, she could not speak but her eyes are filled with tears. I knew she's worried about us, esp my mum and me. We are the most closest to her. She passed on peacefully. I would never forget how's she breathe her last breath. I told her i would take good care of my mum and study hard. Today's her last day of funeral. She wanted a cremation. We saw her being pushed in, everyone shouted, telling her to run coz of the fire. The pain we all couldnt descibed. It ended. Tmr we are going to collect her ashes. I hope she's able to find my grandpa and rest in peace. I would nvr forget her. She brought me up, change my diapers, and all the noble things she's done for me.
Ah ma, rest in peace. 1919-2007.
Ah ma, rest in peace. 1919-2007.
what we could have been, 7:12 PM.
