Monday, January 14, 2008
so? Failed my TP once again! Scored 6 demerit pts with an IMMEDIATE FAILURE. Seriously, i began to lose faith in my driving esp for tp. I wasn't nervous at all today, gt a kind tester too though he looked very fierce when briefing us. I was praying not to take him, then? I'm so lucky huh! My heart is alrdy dead. I could see mum's disappointed look and hear my instructor's disappointed tone. I'm also very dejected and yet i'm still putting up on a brave front. I'm glad to score 6 pts only, but? Y did i fail in my vertical parking, i thought i had overcome my most weak course, tried 3 times yet still unable to park in. I knew i would fail when i can't park in. No point crying over split milk now too. But it's very wasted, i scored no points outside. My 6 pts is in the circuit. Totally lost faith in everything, seems like the journey of my life is not smooth, always met with alot of obstacles in between. I can't blame anyone. I'm such a failure and loser! I don't wanna face my tp anymore! I'm really very scared of it, i don't wish to see my third attempt to flunk again. It doesn't really feel good to fail in the first two attempts. Nobody can understand how i feel now. I'm so stressed up! Guess i need to take a break, to pick up my feelings once again before facing another new challenge.
what we could have been, 8:20 PM.
